thoughts in my head

one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight

the last photo is something that i truly try to tell myself every day.  i think that even at age 30, i have so much to learn, so much to accept of myself, and honestly, so much more work to do.  i guess that i felt that by the time i reached this age....that i'd have it all figured out.  boy was i ever wrong. 

i think that this is a time when i am actually finding myself.  i am more confident to pursue the things that interest me.  i am stronger about branching out and doing things on my own.  i am more comfortable spending time alone, and i actually long for it.  as i am growing, i need more and more quiet time.  time to reflect.  time to accept.  time to think.   time to just be. 

lately, i have really wanted to just get away and spend some time alone.  i was trying to do some searching on places where i could go away for a weekend all alone and just focus on myself.  maybe get a massage, lay in a big comfy bed reading a book, veg out, take a hot bath, and just be quiet.  the thought of taking time like that to myself almost brings me to tears.  i think it would totally rejuvinate my soul and my mind.  hopefully i will find a place very soon.  because i am certainly on the lookout.