Tuesday, January 31, 2012

quiet courage

today i will have quiet courage to get me through the day....and if that doesn't work, i will try again tomorrow

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

thoughts in my head

the last photo is something that i truly try to tell myself every day.  i think that even at age 30, i have so much to learn, so much to accept of myself, and honestly, so much more work to do.  i guess that i felt that by the time i reached this age....that i'd have it all figured out.  boy was i ever wrong. 

i think that this is a time when i am actually finding myself.  i am more confident to pursue the things that interest me.  i am stronger about branching out and doing things on my own.  i am more comfortable spending time alone, and i actually long for it.  as i am growing, i need more and more quiet time.  time to reflect.  time to accept.  time to think.   time to just be. 

lately, i have really wanted to just get away and spend some time alone.  i was trying to do some searching on places where i could go away for a weekend all alone and just focus on myself.  maybe get a massage, lay in a big comfy bed reading a book, veg out, take a hot bath, and just be quiet.  the thought of taking time like that to myself almost brings me to tears.  i think it would totally rejuvinate my soul and my mind.  hopefully i will find a place very soon.  because i am certainly on the lookout.

Saturday, January 14, 2012


i was reading this blog today and i came across this quote that touched me deeply. 

"the best way to find direction is to loose your way"

i'm not sure who said it, or where it originated from, but right now....this quote explains my entire being.  I wrote it on my mirror, and i have to remember that whatever is happening, no matter what it is, i need to just trust that everything will unfold the way it's supposed to. 

Friday, January 13, 2012

all i can do

this is just about where i am at, at the present moment.  it's all i can do to just be enough.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

i won't give up

this song just touches my heart for so many reasons....

Monday, January 2, 2012

happy new year

i say bring it on 2012!!  2011 was full of beautiful, wonderful, stressful, happy, sad, and irreplaceable moments.  i have learned a ton and i feel like my life has changed so so much.  no matter if they were moments that made me smile or moments that had me in tears, this year has shaped my life and i feel that i am a better person because of it.

i worked hard in school, i fell head over heels in love, i wasn't scared to lean on family for help when i needed it, and i have learned many real and true things about myself.  i have become a strong person.  i have made friendships stronger, and i have learned to stand up for myself. 

in 2012 i am trying to let go of old expectations of myself and to try to embrace who i am from day to day.  i want to appreciate more of the simple things in life, and to just let go.