I am 30.....and though i am not where i always thought i would be at 30, through working on myself over the last 5 months or so, i have decided to take all of those silly plans i made for myself when i was 18 and throw them out the door straight into lake erie.
i want to start brand new. i am just finishing up grad school, and i feel like i can do everything i've wanted to do with my career once i graduate in may. i am feeling the urge to move to a new place. a place where i am new, anonymous, and can have a clean slate. a place that is perfect for me when i close my eyes and day dream.
though part of me is so saddened to feel like i am closing an extremely important chapter in my life, the other part of me feels anxious and ready to start focusing on myself for the first time in probably 7 years. i am finally making my wants and needs a priority to myself. no more putting those things on the back burner until i find the time. this is my time right now, and the sooner i realize this, the happier i am going to feel in the deepest parts of my soul that have been empty for so so long.
i am proud of myself. i have come a long long way and i have been good to myself. and quite honestly, it feels damn good.